the world is changing for me too
i just came across a bit of beautiful news... 2 of my "friends" got attached. for those who know me... u'll understand y i put the inverted comma's over the friend word.for those who don't know me... it's not because they aren't my friends... but i simply don't consider anyone to be a friend. take that last statement any way u want... i don't care. to the happy couple... i'm really happy... really i am... pls do not associate anything thats happening to me to be about them.
i ahve jsut broken up wif my girlfriend.. recently... the exact day i choose to forget... for the first timein my life... i initiated the break up... i will not disclose why mainly because ppl judge b4 thinking. and a loose tongue spells disaster.i don't care who u are... i will not tell u why. hate me or draw conclusions if u must but i've made my stand.
here's another thing i wish to reveal... i'm not affected by this breakup... then again i never ahd been affected by breakups... but this time it's different... i'm crumbling. literally... my shield is cracking... replaced with a stronger material which would isolate me from the rest of the world... the world is fake... love is but an illusion that keeps the hole in ur heart temporarily occupied... this may sound like i'm being bitter and jealous about others and their spouses... but i assure everyone that i'm not... sooner or later the hole in the heart will be there again. onyl when you are able to adapt and understand the significance of the hole and respect it 'presence' will u truely grasp the meaning of life and the purpose u serve during ur short stay on planet earth.
gibberish? probably... i have a problem wif formulating ideas into words... and my GP exams's tomorrow. ha! oh well... i'll try my best. thoughts run fsater than the speed of typing or even talking... BIG DUH there... i'm glad i have my sisters around me... ppl i can trust, ppl who wld replace the entire definition of best friend... or even still... take it's place btw girlfriend and best friend... but my sisters... to me... are family... taking their place beyond the meaningless friends and girlfriend's phase... but... even with sisters there are things one cannot share...
i had a friend once... her name's shirlene... she unconditionally brought me into her circle of friends... and taught me the meaning of friendship... for that moment... friendship was something greater den wad a boy girl storybook romance is or can ever be. i really loved her... though only one of her many many many many many many many mannnnnyyyy friends... i felt special... really special. she gave me the strength to continue my work and my destiny (laugh all u want, u noe it's empty laughter) but alas... our friendship didn't last... i gave into temptation and wooed one of her friends... i didn't succeed... but that's not important... the attempt made me lose a friend... shirlene yeong... me 'made up' but things aren't the same anymore...
that was 2 years ago. i hope she reads this... i really do. maybe the power of the WWW work in my favor for once... shirlene... i need u... save me...
i ahve jsut broken up wif my girlfriend.. recently... the exact day i choose to forget... for the first timein my life... i initiated the break up... i will not disclose why mainly because ppl judge b4 thinking. and a loose tongue spells disaster.i don't care who u are... i will not tell u why. hate me or draw conclusions if u must but i've made my stand.
here's another thing i wish to reveal... i'm not affected by this breakup... then again i never ahd been affected by breakups... but this time it's different... i'm crumbling. literally... my shield is cracking... replaced with a stronger material which would isolate me from the rest of the world... the world is fake... love is but an illusion that keeps the hole in ur heart temporarily occupied... this may sound like i'm being bitter and jealous about others and their spouses... but i assure everyone that i'm not... sooner or later the hole in the heart will be there again. onyl when you are able to adapt and understand the significance of the hole and respect it 'presence' will u truely grasp the meaning of life and the purpose u serve during ur short stay on planet earth.
gibberish? probably... i have a problem wif formulating ideas into words... and my GP exams's tomorrow. ha! oh well... i'll try my best. thoughts run fsater than the speed of typing or even talking... BIG DUH there... i'm glad i have my sisters around me... ppl i can trust, ppl who wld replace the entire definition of best friend... or even still... take it's place btw girlfriend and best friend... but my sisters... to me... are family... taking their place beyond the meaningless friends and girlfriend's phase... but... even with sisters there are things one cannot share...
i had a friend once... her name's shirlene... she unconditionally brought me into her circle of friends... and taught me the meaning of friendship... for that moment... friendship was something greater den wad a boy girl storybook romance is or can ever be. i really loved her... though only one of her many many many many many many many mannnnnyyyy friends... i felt special... really special. she gave me the strength to continue my work and my destiny (laugh all u want, u noe it's empty laughter) but alas... our friendship didn't last... i gave into temptation and wooed one of her friends... i didn't succeed... but that's not important... the attempt made me lose a friend... shirlene yeong... me 'made up' but things aren't the same anymore...
that was 2 years ago. i hope she reads this... i really do. maybe the power of the WWW work in my favor for once... shirlene... i need u... save me...
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