Giving up on dreams
about 5 years ago, i wanted to become a fashion designer... about a year ago i told myself to be realistic... i did not have the talent to design clothes, nor do i have the skills to sew or knit... but i was still passionate... passionate about that world. about the clothes, the glam, the people and the lifestyle... fascinated even. about a week ago... i had a scary thought... i may be too old to enter into that life when i finish studying. I'm 21 this year... when i enter UNI i'd be 22 and graduate at 26... if i was to enter into laselle i wld only graduate at the very least, 30. how is someone with no capital and no connections supposed to enter that market at the age of thirty? How? This realization is rather terrifying for me. If i survive UNI, wat awaits one carrying a sociology degree? even my BA in fashion was only meant as a point of interest... how am i to survive out there in the world? how? I want to be able to give my children a good life. letting them walk the best path imaginable. how many times have we wished we could turn back time? i have... and i still do now... there are regrets in my life. regrets about decisions i've made on impulse and/or stubbornness. it was my dream to be a fashion designer/manager, i may have to forget this dream now... i do not know but... we can only walk on...
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